Tuesday, 30 September 2008

The Photo

This is the Photo Gozra took for his book!  I'm shocked at how huge my boobs are! They never look that big in the mirror!  Oh well the advantage with huge boobs is that they cancer could not be fucked to take the long journey to my lymph nodes, thus saving me so much hassle.

I love the photo although to be hones I've been a bit worried about my son seeing it.  Not sure how happy he would be with his mother showing her all to any one who cares to look!   I'm very proud of my scar and the fact that my journey is almost over.  I've learnt a lot from this little adventure and hope that I can pass some of my knowledge on to others.    Also hope I'll be a nicer person at the end of this.

Sunday, 28 September 2008

Long time no see!

I've been without a network for a while.  Basically I've been stealing some neighbours connection but guess what they put a password on it!  How antisocial! 

Well after a lot or negotiation I've at last got my own connection, phew!

Since I last logged in I've been so so busy.  Polly has been here, which has been seriously funny but right now I'm to tired to tell all, so will try at do this tomorrow.

Are you glad I'm back?  I am!


Back Again!

Tuesday, 16 September 2008

Sleep, Sleep and more sleep!!

I'm exhausted!  My day goes like this:

10.00 am Try and get up!  Usually takes about an hour.
11.00 am Walk dogs.
12.00 noon Rush of to hospital for radiotherapy.  Popping in on beautiful sister and Lotty the  the adorable baby with more hair than me!
2.00 pm Home, lunch, bed.
7.00 pm Get up, eat supper.  Sit on sofa like lump of lifeless lard.
9.00 pm Go to bed!

Its fashion week and all my facebook friends are going to all the wonderful shows and parties. They then ring me to tell me what fun they are having.  Also lovely Eric actually managed to send me a couple of photos showing what fun he's having!  Thanks darling.  Just received another party invite! I'm consoling myself with dreams of when its all over.

This sleeping thing has only just started.  I did have the most amazing weekend.  Ian (who makes beautiful handmade corsets)  had a birthday party on Saturday.  I took naughty daughter as she did an apprenticeship with him and loves him.  I also took lovely boy I've been kissing.  I was driving as the party was miles away in north London.  On the way we picked up my old school friend Katie.  When we get there it was brilliant.  My lovely Mary was there from Devon, looking wonderful as well as loads of old friends.  Half way through the party Katie turned to me and asked:
 "was there not someone coming who you have been kissing?".  
"Darling" I said "he's the one who was in the car with us"
"Oh" she said"I thought he was Rosie's (naughty daughter's) boyfriend".
Well what could I say!!!  anyway the outcome is that I'm going to take things no further with beautiful boy.  He is very sweet but I think we are going to stop kissing and just be friends from now on.  Don't think he was very impressed with being thought of as boyfriend of naughty daughter either.  Especially as she was being totally vile to him!

Sunday was The club's Christmas party (we have to do it now as we are so busy at Christmas).  The theme was Beach Party.  Before that I cooked a Sunday roast for my elegant sister-in-law and my beautiful but very naughty niece and nephew.  Beautiful boy was also there and again sister-in-law thought he was a friend of the kids!! When I'm well and have my figure back I'm going to find a nice sensible man of my own age.  I never want to be one of those middle aged ladies that has a selection of toy boys on her arm!  

Then onto the club.  Naughty daughter had friends with her one of whom had a nicer car than me!  And drove us there.  I was in the front with a very beautiful Chanel bag on my lap!  Not mine hers!!  By then I was quite tired.  Then got rather drunk and made best friends with a woman that owns a fetish hotel!!!  Oops!!  One of my favourite work mates, Jim was miserable because he's homeless.  Yes you've guessed we have a new member of our family.  He's turning out to be very easy.  Tonight he's in Brighton having a romantic night with a Fuel Girl. My only tiny worry is that he does have the most dreadful reputation as a seducer and I'm worried he might jump on naughty daughter when she's drunk!!  Well on the way home from the party on Saturday she (with rather a lot of wine in her) declared that she was very good in bed.  Lordy how to make a Mother's ears bleed!

Well I'm signing off now as it's almost my bed time.

Love from lifeless lump of lard.


Wednesday, 10 September 2008


Oh my God!

I'm so so happy!  I don't think I have ever felt as happy as I am now!

I've hooked up with an old gang of friends.  They all know me so well that life is so easy.   They totally accept my bald state and are brilliant.  Tonight I've been to my beloved Jamie's exhibition at 'Trash Palace.  It was so much fun, I was so happy to see so many old faces from my past.

I'm through with Chemo and Radiotherapy is just a walk in the park compared.

I've been offered the most amazing job.

I've just had the most amazing news re finances.  

I'm killing the cancer beast!!!!

I'm going to Spain with my 2 best friends in the beginning of October.  Can't wait!

I love my children! (this should be reason 1)

And I can go on and on and on!!!  Basically life is wonderful.


Monday, 8 September 2008


Silly depression has gone.  actually I'm feeling happier than I have for ages.  I've started my radiotherapy and its so so easy after chemo.  Although I've discovered the love of sleep.  I'm sleeping loads and loving it, also having the most amazing dreams.

Between sleeping I've been very busy.  I'm going to be photographed by Gozra tomorrow.  Gozra is the most amazing photographer, he's been in Vogue, and more.  Google him!  Anyway its for a book on beauty and I'm going to be in it!!!  I'l post the picture after.

Also I've managed another kiss with beautiful boy!  We went for a drink last week and I so remember the kiss this time!  It was so so lovely.  He is very cool and I know we will be great friends.  Sadly one of the throwbacks from chemo is the total lack of desire so I'm not in the leas bit interested in taking things further at the moment.  Although I'm probably flattering myself if I think he would!

Sad news is the fact that my lovely club is being closed down in January so I'll be out of a job.  Although I've been offered 4 jobs and one of them is amazing.  I'll let you know when I have conformation that It's all on!!  I'm not going to say anything now as I might jinx it!!

So all is very well at the moment for me.



Monday, 1 September 2008

Lottie Heffron

This is my new niece Lottie.  Beautiful sister is very pissed of that I have not mentioned her before but to be honest I'm slightly pissed off that Lottie has more hair than me!

Actually she is very very lovely and I'm slightly in love with her.

Me and some of the boys from work!

These pictures were taken on a brilliant night out with my lovely Jamie.  So sad he's not in any!  Below is me with Richard who does not actually work with us.  He's part of a cabaret act called Dikkie and Dolly.  I think he was once a contestant on Big Brother.  The other character is Andy who I work with and love dearly, despite the fact that he is a grumpy old sod.
This picture is of me, Andy again and Kurt who works behind our bar as well as being in an incredibly cool band.