Thursday, 27 November 2008

And it goes on!

So I thought I'd seen the last of The Royal Marsden Hospital!  No!  Went for my final check and guess what a lump!  Obviously not cancer as nothing could survive what I went through but a bloody big lump anyway.  So I went back yesterday for a scan.  Lovely doctor hummed and then decided to remove it there and then!  

He gave me a local anaesthetic and then suck a HUGE syringe in to suck out loads of fluid that looked very like white wine.  As this was going on I suddenly thought; God my boob is going to shrink and I'm going to look seriously odd".   So I asked lovely doctor if this was really necessary and couldn't we just leave the white wine where it was.  Sadly it was as it can cause infection, so now I'm very wonky but healthy.

I've also been the butt of lots of wine jokes in the office today, such as don't let my boss know as he'll stop buying wine as start milking me!  Also that's where all the wine I dribble when drunk goes!!

No more visits to hospital for 6 months.

I've decided to stop this blog now as I'm well.  In a week I'll be closing it down.

So thanks for reading.



Wednesday, 5 November 2008

Ticking Over

I'm back at work and loving it.  Its coming up to the party season so I'm very busy.  

I have about an inch of rather strange hair.  It has blond tips followed by a dull wet pavement kind of colour.  I'm going to let it grow a little longer before I do anything too drastic.  Have decided that It must be done before the party season starts in earnest.  

My social life is going very well and I honestly feel my old self.  I'm still slightly bloated and can't wait for that to go but running up and down the club stairs will soon shift it.  Despite being bloated I've managed to have an extremely lovely and warm romantic interlude that left me feeling like a proper woman again.  I'm not going to go into details as I think that's slightly vulgar and besides its my business only.

One odd thing I've noticed.  Its nothing to do with cancer.  Is the very strange atmosphere in London at the moment.  This week alone I've been delayed on the tube 3 times by suicides on the tracks and I know there have been far more than usual.  I've also noticed that there is lots of arguing going on.  I had the first ever argument with one of my brothers this week about the most ridiculous thing (money).  I have to say its left me very shaken as I'm not a confrontational person.  Also naughty daughter and I have been bickering more than ever and she has been very volatile.  Is it due to the financial crisis or is there something in the air?  All rather worrying anyway.

On a happy note I had the most amazing conversation with my brother who lives in New Zealand.  he called yesterday morning.  I so love and miss him.  Can't wait to go and visit him in Jan.  He is the main reason I'm going to continue with this blog.  He and his wife read it and they love it as it helps them to feel close to me and the family.  

Love you John and Tonya.

Thursday, 23 October 2008

Wey hey!!!

I know I've not been in touch for a while but there is a very good reason!

Before you read on you have every right to call me a 'CUNT', 'UNGRATEFUL BITCH', or any other nasty name that I probably deserve, given the financial climate at the moment.

I've spent days wondering how to word this story. I'm still wondering how to word the next sentence! Right I'm just going to go for it!!!!

About 15 years ago I set up a clothing company with two (then) friends. About 5 years ago it all went very wrong. I walked away very very sad and decided to put the whole incident behind me. I have to say not very well, which is one of the reasons I think I got cancer.

Anyway while I was in Spain this August I got a call from my accountant telling me someone was interested in buying this company. I still owned shares in it. This was a time when I was feeling awful and to be honest did not take that much notice.

So to cut a long story short the sale went through! I've received more money than most people get in a lifetime of work!!

I'm not only well again but also very very rich................



Guess what I can take it! Just don't send begging letters. Feel free to hate me.

I'm back at work and am not sure if I'm going to go on with this blog as I'm very busy. No! Not spending my money!!! Just arranging the Christmas events!! Also sadly my lovely club is going to be demolished next year to make way for tube redevelopment. I'm not worried about employment as I know my boss will keep me on and I've also been offered a job by my favorite promoters.

Lovely Big Boss and I were chatting and he said to me:

"This has been an incredibly lucky year for you"

I thought about it and realised he was right. I've successfully come through cancer (hopefully, will know in November) and got shed loads of money! What he forgot to mention is the fact that this year (starting in October of last year) I've met some of the most wonderful people ever in the guise of him and his wonderful staff/family.

I'm truly lucky to be working in with such lovely people.

Oh god please don't think I'm trying to sound nice so you'll like me again!

think I should go as I can't stand the pressure.


Monday, 13 October 2008


I've just been in Spain for a week with two of my favourite girls.  Mrs T (famous for here advice on how to cope with cancer) and Mrs M.  My family house in Spain is amazing (although I say so myself).  The girls are fantastically spoilt (especially Mrs T) but even they were very impressed with their accommodation. Every room has a bathroom en-suit and the rooms are fantastically comfortable,with down pillows, linen sheets and soft wool blankets.  

My darling Mother loves hotels and has an obsession with the bathroom bits so is always collecting them and tipping the maids to gets extra.  These all go to Spain to decorate the bathrooms.  Each room has a different hotel theme.  I was the latest hotel they stayed in, in Saville.  Th parents went there for their wedding anniversary last month (they are still ridiculously romantic).

We had the whole house to ourselves which is a first for me.  I was very tired after the Radiotherapy and was so thrilled that they were happy just lounging around the house, which is all I wanted to do.  The week went so fast and looking back we hardly left the house.  We went to the supermarket, two restaurants and one walk!  Apart from that we just lounged.  We all took projects, me book club book and a carding I'm making for new niece (with more hair than me), Mrs M a drawing project and Mrs T lots of classic books.  Guess what we did none of them.  To be honest I have no idea what we did do!  All I know is that the time went very fast.  Mrs M did teach me the most horrifically addictive card game.  Don't remember the name but I happily played it till the early hours.

My treatment is now all over.  I go back to the hospital on the 21st November to see how well it all went.  I don't think they give the all clear with breast cancer they just keep checking you for a while and the checks get fewer and further apart until they feel you are OK.  Which I think is a good sign.  I've got a very butch hair style and am longing for it to grow longer.  As my darling nephew said "Lou you look like a man in a dress"!!!

I've had some very exciting news financially.  I had some shares in what I thought was a dead company but it appears not.  In this awful time of impending depression I've managed to sell them very very well, which is unbelievable.  Sadly most of the money has already gone but at least I'm not facing the future with any financial worries.

So am back to work tomorrow and this time its hopefully forever with no long breaks.  

Tuesday, 30 September 2008

The Photo

This is the Photo Gozra took for his book!  I'm shocked at how huge my boobs are! They never look that big in the mirror!  Oh well the advantage with huge boobs is that they cancer could not be fucked to take the long journey to my lymph nodes, thus saving me so much hassle.

I love the photo although to be hones I've been a bit worried about my son seeing it.  Not sure how happy he would be with his mother showing her all to any one who cares to look!   I'm very proud of my scar and the fact that my journey is almost over.  I've learnt a lot from this little adventure and hope that I can pass some of my knowledge on to others.    Also hope I'll be a nicer person at the end of this.

Sunday, 28 September 2008

Long time no see!

I've been without a network for a while.  Basically I've been stealing some neighbours connection but guess what they put a password on it!  How antisocial! 

Well after a lot or negotiation I've at last got my own connection, phew!

Since I last logged in I've been so so busy.  Polly has been here, which has been seriously funny but right now I'm to tired to tell all, so will try at do this tomorrow.

Are you glad I'm back?  I am!


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